Human being, on its every form fascinates me. I often find myself drawn into their soul, lost in the depth of tangled strings, the mixture of strength and weakness, beauty and flaw, human soul in its rawest form. Therefore, it is understandable that I seek excitement in human’s creations, whatever they might be. Paintings, drawings, writings, songs, dances, crafts, etc. Those creations tells us so much about the creators. It is like diving into their soul. Digging on the layers they don’t show explicitly on daily basis. Original creation is like the extension of their being. The dynamics of it is also tells us the turbulence of their mind. Witnessing how their state of mind changes alongside the ticking clock and the wave of situations makes me feel a pseudo experience. Makes me think I have lived longer than I actually have, for the additional life-span was from those pseudo experience I feel when I imagine myself wearing their shoes, borrowing their head. The beauty of the creation is the beauty of their soul. Thank you to all creators that pour your heart out on extending yourself through original creation, without allowing much restriction from society, and without allowing yourself to commit horrible sins in creating, such as: plagiarism. Because the rawest form of yourself, however it might looked like, is always so beautiful in my eyes. Thank you once again. I do hope you always find yourself able to create, and find happiness in it.
Minggu, 10 Oktober 2021
Sabtu, 30 November 2019
[191201] It’s been a while
It’s December 1st, 2019
Well, it was not an easy thing tryin to sneak into this blog once more. I mean, it’s been a long time since the last post and I can’t even remember which email I used to sign into this blogger account. Luckily I remember it somehow.
So, I’ve been re-reading what’s in this blog. From the latest post to the oldest. It’s quite fascinating actually, recalling what was happened in my life and what was in my head back then. I changed, a lot. There are so many things that do not fit my current self. There are many more things make me embarrassed as I think “How did I get this stupid?” and “I do not agree with my old self who write this as I know better now”, or “Oh! So my english was this awful? How could I put the word ‘either’ with ‘nor’? Such a stupid!!”. It made me have an urge to delete them right away. However, if I really take it as an actual action, there would not be anything left then, since I feel embarrassed of all those posts. So, I decide to let them remain here. Those stupidities, the times when I knew nothing, when I was wrong, when I think of what I should not be thinking, when I was a full trash, etc, I decide to record them here as I know that those are the things that make me go this far. Those faults and mistakes are what I was escorting me to what I am now.
Should I bring up Joon’s speech on the 2018 United Nation General Assembly in front of world leaders?
“Maybe, I made a mistake yesterday, but yesterday’s me is still me. Today, I am who I am with all of my faults and my mistakes. Tomorrow, I might be a tiny bit wiser, and it would be me too. These faults and mistakes I what I am making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life. I have come to love myself for who I am, for who I was, and for who I hope to become.”
Whoa, I know each details of the words by heart now. I didn’t even need to copy-paste or rewatch the video. I KNOW THEM BY HEART!!
Ok, if you happen to be here, welcome! Enjoy my stupidities haha
Well, it was not an easy thing tryin to sneak into this blog once more. I mean, it’s been a long time since the last post and I can’t even remember which email I used to sign into this blogger account. Luckily I remember it somehow.
So, I’ve been re-reading what’s in this blog. From the latest post to the oldest. It’s quite fascinating actually, recalling what was happened in my life and what was in my head back then. I changed, a lot. There are so many things that do not fit my current self. There are many more things make me embarrassed as I think “How did I get this stupid?” and “I do not agree with my old self who write this as I know better now”, or “Oh! So my english was this awful? How could I put the word ‘either’ with ‘nor’? Such a stupid!!”. It made me have an urge to delete them right away. However, if I really take it as an actual action, there would not be anything left then, since I feel embarrassed of all those posts. So, I decide to let them remain here. Those stupidities, the times when I knew nothing, when I was wrong, when I think of what I should not be thinking, when I was a full trash, etc, I decide to record them here as I know that those are the things that make me go this far. Those faults and mistakes are what I was escorting me to what I am now.
Should I bring up Joon’s speech on the 2018 United Nation General Assembly in front of world leaders?
“Maybe, I made a mistake yesterday, but yesterday’s me is still me. Today, I am who I am with all of my faults and my mistakes. Tomorrow, I might be a tiny bit wiser, and it would be me too. These faults and mistakes I what I am making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life. I have come to love myself for who I am, for who I was, and for who I hope to become.”
Whoa, I know each details of the words by heart now. I didn’t even need to copy-paste or rewatch the video. I KNOW THEM BY HEART!!
Ok, if you happen to be here, welcome! Enjoy my stupidities haha
Rabu, 09 November 2016
[161109] Raden
It is rainfall that congratulate me for coming back safely.
Dramatically, I walked out from city bus. Then I quickly ran into the nearby
street canopy in order to protect my lodgings. I got there with just a little
wet in my left arm jacket as it's sacrifice. Smiling for this.
Thanking God for this, a simply planned city component that protect pedestrian from rain.
I straightly walked in to a convenience store near the junction. Right at the time I reach that place, I open it's door in sacred way. breath deeply and feel the air. It is the assortment of packed biscuits, drinks, soaps, plastic things, instant noodles, and even high quality fruits. I haven't smell these kind of things for about 2 months.
I walked around, enjoy every spirit of these smells on each corners. Somebody might throw a suspicious glare at my deed but, who cares?
This journey ends at the store bench, a cup of noodle and a cup of coffee already in front of me. I'm about to eat them all when my phone ringing. I thought it's my mom questioning where am I already. But it's not.
"Hello, Raden?"
"Hai, Ayun."
"Hmmm what's wrong? It's surprise me that you called."
"Where have you been? You looked tired and a little bit different."
“wait, you can see me? Where are you now?“
"I'm behind you" he said at the end of telephone.
I quickly turn my head around and find him there, standing in front of refrigerator about 6 meters away from me.
I smiled so bright seeing the creature that I've been familiar to, and he also smile while walking towards me.
"I need to call first so I got a confirmation that it's you." He said as he take a seat right beside me.
I smiled.
"It's been a while, Raden“
“it's been a while, Ayun"
It is him.
Raden.
My childhood friend, neighborhood friend, then my high school friend. Well, actually we're not that close kind of friend. Just somewhat friend, a random one. The last time I saw him is around 2 years ago?
ah no
it's just 3 months ago on the last Raya. He came to my home, looking for my mom. Yeah, my mom. Not me.
"Where have you been? Did you just traveled abroad, again? Looking for something to write?“ he asked while watching at my big travel bag, my backpack, my camera bag, and my travelling outfit completed by an unused masker hanging around my neck.
"Well, it's not just abroad. It's more than abroad. I feel like travelled to another world, even another age. It's a lone Island at the end of this country called Girimukti. You know that place?"
I know that I'm not that close with this friend but I don't know why I feel like I can freely talk about anything I feel to him. Always like that.
"Well, I never go there but I heard a lot from my lab friend who's been there for taking some samples. And, as I remember, they described it as a not-recommended place to go."
"Yes, it is. Exactly. Just don't go there without an urgent reason.“
And he agreed my sentence.
"Is that place the reason of the acnes on your face?"
He ask with a laugh at the end. While I'm not laughing.
“yes, these acnes is definitely the result. I need a long term facial treatment after this. Gosh, I'm very thankful that I was born here in this city. It has anything needed by human being. This convenience store for example. Or the showroom in front, cinema theatre over there, nearby international school, hardware store behind, barber shop, good road, nice public transportation, fashion center, a beautiful mosque, coffee shop, towers, and of course internet connection."
"I already thankful for it everyday, fyi. Well, what reason bring you there, anyway?"
"Wait"
I open my camera bag, and pull out my DSLR.
"Look at this. You have to be honoured for you're the first person who watch these photos. Those are the things that will be sorted on the next edition of my magz."
"Wow, you're such a pro. Fly miles away for just some shots?“
“and a bunch of stories. Every genre!“
“well done, reporter!" He smiled as looking at my shots.
"I'm so hungry I'll eat my noodles first. Do you want some?"
"No thanks, can I just taste a little drop of your coffee instead?"
"Sure."
Thanking God for this, a simply planned city component that protect pedestrian from rain.
I straightly walked in to a convenience store near the junction. Right at the time I reach that place, I open it's door in sacred way. breath deeply and feel the air. It is the assortment of packed biscuits, drinks, soaps, plastic things, instant noodles, and even high quality fruits. I haven't smell these kind of things for about 2 months.
I walked around, enjoy every spirit of these smells on each corners. Somebody might throw a suspicious glare at my deed but, who cares?
This journey ends at the store bench, a cup of noodle and a cup of coffee already in front of me. I'm about to eat them all when my phone ringing. I thought it's my mom questioning where am I already. But it's not.
"Hello, Raden?"
"Hai, Ayun."
"Hmmm what's wrong? It's surprise me that you called."
"Where have you been? You looked tired and a little bit different."
“wait, you can see me? Where are you now?“
"I'm behind you" he said at the end of telephone.
I quickly turn my head around and find him there, standing in front of refrigerator about 6 meters away from me.
I smiled so bright seeing the creature that I've been familiar to, and he also smile while walking towards me.
"I need to call first so I got a confirmation that it's you." He said as he take a seat right beside me.
I smiled.
"It's been a while, Raden“
“it's been a while, Ayun"
It is him.
Raden.
My childhood friend, neighborhood friend, then my high school friend. Well, actually we're not that close kind of friend. Just somewhat friend, a random one. The last time I saw him is around 2 years ago?
ah no
it's just 3 months ago on the last Raya. He came to my home, looking for my mom. Yeah, my mom. Not me.
"Where have you been? Did you just traveled abroad, again? Looking for something to write?“ he asked while watching at my big travel bag, my backpack, my camera bag, and my travelling outfit completed by an unused masker hanging around my neck.
"Well, it's not just abroad. It's more than abroad. I feel like travelled to another world, even another age. It's a lone Island at the end of this country called Girimukti. You know that place?"
I know that I'm not that close with this friend but I don't know why I feel like I can freely talk about anything I feel to him. Always like that.
"Well, I never go there but I heard a lot from my lab friend who's been there for taking some samples. And, as I remember, they described it as a not-recommended place to go."
"Yes, it is. Exactly. Just don't go there without an urgent reason.“
And he agreed my sentence.
"Is that place the reason of the acnes on your face?"
He ask with a laugh at the end. While I'm not laughing.
“yes, these acnes is definitely the result. I need a long term facial treatment after this. Gosh, I'm very thankful that I was born here in this city. It has anything needed by human being. This convenience store for example. Or the showroom in front, cinema theatre over there, nearby international school, hardware store behind, barber shop, good road, nice public transportation, fashion center, a beautiful mosque, coffee shop, towers, and of course internet connection."
"I already thankful for it everyday, fyi. Well, what reason bring you there, anyway?"
"Wait"
I open my camera bag, and pull out my DSLR.
"Look at this. You have to be honoured for you're the first person who watch these photos. Those are the things that will be sorted on the next edition of my magz."
"Wow, you're such a pro. Fly miles away for just some shots?“
“and a bunch of stories. Every genre!“
“well done, reporter!" He smiled as looking at my shots.
"I'm so hungry I'll eat my noodles first. Do you want some?"
"No thanks, can I just taste a little drop of your coffee instead?"
"Sure."
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Nulis ininya pas masih di Girimukti btw
kinda hoping, but it actually never happened haha
#sudahbiasamenelankecewa
#sudahbiasapatahhati
#sudahlah
Gambar dibawah ini maksudnya ....
maksudnya w orangnya gapernah cerita ke orang karena takut di-judge. jadi, kalo kebetulan gue cerita (berarti udah something went wrong banget), plis jangan di judge nanti w makin introvert. nanti w kaya si Wang So ini.
cukup ae bilang "Yeah, I understand."
Gambar dibawah ini maksudnya ....
maksudnya w orangnya gapernah cerita ke orang karena takut di-judge. jadi, kalo kebetulan gue cerita (berarti udah something went wrong banget), plis jangan di judge nanti w makin introvert. nanti w kaya si Wang So ini.
cukup ae bilang "Yeah, I understand."
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