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                I tried hard to not let anyone expecting too much on me. Yeah, it’s been a huge burden when everyone knew the fact of my balance portion of academic, organization, self-care and social relationship. I’m sure they’ll expect too much on me. But as they knew how I am actually, they’ll be disappointed soon. Cause I’m just me. Just like this. Poorly struggling. And probably don’t really match their expectation.

                In fact, I was rejected in some place I tried to join. I hardly understand what the lecturers said in front of class. I was struggling doing those tasks and homework. I always forget to take care about myself when I’m too busy with these stuffs. I’m not as perfect as everyone expected. I have so many flaws here and there.

                In the last one year, it seems like I do so many things. But now I realize that I don’t really wanna do so many things. I just wanna do one thing that I do right and well.

Your burden will not getting lighter as your arms getting stronger.

                Living together with someone I don’t understand is such an annoying thing. Yeah, I used to be so well-minded if it comes to understanding people. But I surely have a different life-overview with this creature. I didn’t expect it in the beginning. I thought this creature is a usual living thing that I can handle. But I was wrong, completely. It makes everything become harder as I can’t tell my true feelings.

                I listen to exo’s song, Run. It reminds me of my dormitory family. They’re so great. I miss being with them in every kind of storm and sunshine.