When the things get harder than before

finally the time's come where I have to give my best efforts for something doesn't really big in other's eyes. well, jealousy is something I always befriend with. the fact that the way he treats her is better than the way he treats me is ironically damaging this fragile heart.

"da aku mah apa atuh?" is the words I often say in my daily things.

it shows something like "I'm as useful as 'p' in the word of 'psychology'" yeah, the way I feel that I'm no one is really bother me. I have either courage nor confident.

but when I handle a problem in my event, someone told me that as a committee we have to got some courage to say no at something don't match with our goal and our way.

so I'm just sitting here try to find my confident.