I tried hard to not let anyone
expecting too much on me. Yeah, it’s been a huge burden when everyone knew the
fact of my balance portion of academic, organization, self-care and social
relationship. I’m sure they’ll expect too much on me. But as they knew how I am
actually, they’ll be disappointed soon. Cause I’m just me. Just like this.
Poorly struggling. And probably don’t really match their expectation.
In fact, I was rejected in some
place I tried to join. I hardly understand what the lecturers said in front of
class. I was struggling doing those tasks and homework. I always forget to take
care about myself when I’m too busy with these stuffs. I’m not as perfect as
everyone expected. I have so many flaws here and there.
In the last one year, it seems like
I do so many things. But now I realize that I don’t really wanna do so many
things. I just wanna do one thing that I do right and well.
Your
burden will not getting lighter as your arms getting stronger.
Living together with someone I
don’t understand is such an annoying thing. Yeah, I used to be so well-minded
if it comes to understanding people. But I surely have a different
life-overview with this creature. I didn’t expect it in the beginning. I
thought this creature is a usual living thing that I can handle. But I was
wrong, completely. It makes everything become harder as I can’t tell my true
feelings.
I listen to exo’s song, Run. It
reminds me of my dormitory family. They’re so great. I miss being with them in
every kind of storm and sunshine.
