It’s December 1st, 2019
Well, it was not an easy thing tryin to sneak into this blog once more. I mean, it’s been a long time since the last post and I can’t even remember which email I used to sign into this blogger account. Luckily I remember it somehow.
So, I’ve been re-reading what’s in this blog. From the latest post to the oldest. It’s quite fascinating actually, recalling what was happened in my life and what was in my head back then. I changed, a lot. There are so many things that do not fit my current self. There are many more things make me embarrassed as I think “How did I get this stupid?” and “I do not agree with my old self who write this as I know better now”, or “Oh! So my english was this awful? How could I put the word ‘either’ with ‘nor’? Such a stupid!!”. It made me have an urge to delete them right away. However, if I really take it as an actual action, there would not be anything left then, since I feel embarrassed of all those posts. So, I decide to let them remain here. Those stupidities, the times when I knew nothing, when I was wrong, when I think of what I should not be thinking, when I was a full trash, etc, I decide to record them here as I know that those are the things that make me go this far. Those faults and mistakes are what I was escorting me to what I am now.
Should I bring up Joon’s speech on the 2018 United Nation General Assembly in front of world leaders?
“Maybe, I made a mistake yesterday, but yesterday’s me is still me. Today, I am who I am with all of my faults and my mistakes. Tomorrow, I might be a tiny bit wiser, and it would be me too. These faults and mistakes I what I am making up the brightest stars in the constellation of my life. I have come to love myself for who I am, for who I was, and for who I hope to become.”
Whoa, I know each details of the words by heart now. I didn’t even need to copy-paste or rewatch the video. I KNOW THEM BY HEART!!
Ok, if you happen to be here, welcome! Enjoy my stupidities haha
